Mom and wife have been my “titles” for over 5 years now. This is what I have always dreamed of being when I grew up. I couldn’t wait to play house and figure out what everyone loved and make their eyes light up each day. Even though “mom” and “wife” are what I dreamed of being, I have gone through periods of my life where I felt like I had no purpose because I didn’t have a “title” to put on my résumé. To our boys, daddy was always the hero. Being a police officer and a soldier makes dad the coolest person around, and that’s a hard act to follow.
Being the wife of a soldier has taught me a lot about who I am. I have realized I am strong, independent, supportive, and brave.I’m also dependent on my family. That’s not a weakness, that’s a reality. Like most women I once looked to my husband to fulfill all my needs and make me happy. It wasn’t until this last deployment Chris went on that I discover the person I must depend on is God in EVERY area of my life. This has changed my whole perspective on existence. I’ve become successful at multiple lives; trainer, CrossFit Kids instructor, a Gym manager, mother, wife, and teacher. But with all these jobs, I’m no longer worried about what my titles are; I am focused on my role in Gods kingdom. Am I doing my best to be a good teacher and protector for my kids? Am I being a good supporter, encourager and helper to my husband, and building relationships around me that honor what God has for me?
Its scary thinking there is a huge world out there and I have to decide what role I am going to play in it. Stop worrying about who or what you want to be and start focusing on who you already are and how to make that person better. God has a plan for each of us, allow Him to guide you in that direction. Trust me His plan is better than ours!